Saturday, January 8, 2011

Passion

I had always wondered what it would be like to be up on the stage playing the guitar & get the audience roaring to sound, vibe & energy you create. It must be magical! to be able to move so many people the way to you want them to, just like a hypnotist. Years have passed and the story still continues.. they create magic I still wonder how!?

Do they have something imbibed in them that we do not? Are they special in any ways? If they are what makes them so special!?

They believed in what they did and it was their passion & dedication towards music that got them there.

So if there was something you always wanted to do. If there was a dream that you always wanted to achieve, what is it that is stopping you from achieving it? Few people including me attribute it to time, work, pressure, responsibilities etc. Frankly & sadly it is our lack of keenness or laziness that dint get us what we wanted.

It had been my long time passion to play a guitar and I always wanted to have a band which plays & makes music what we believe in. Also I had this virus for photography and always craved to go out into the open Savana and get to see and capture wildlife to my hearts content.

Time passed so did keenness for these things. Life had taken a different route whilst in college. Bunking classes, catch up for a smoke, hangout for a beer.. life was smooth but still somewhere it was popping up! “What happened to the guitar? When are you planning your 'Into the Jungle' with your camera!?”. I just subdued such urges by calling up pals & making movie/booze plans.

As they time flies & hell it does! College was coming to an end making us sad but the fact that we would be working & making some money made us happy. Little did we know that our lives were changing & we were just falling right into it.

Freshly out of college and into a different world called office we were beaming with zeal & energy thinking “I am gonna be rocking here! This place seems cool. People grown up to do their work & get paid at the end of the month; this is life!!“. Made a lot of new friends who too shared the same thoughts or “wavelength” is what we engineers call it. Friends were cool, had a blast for 2 years then suddenly it was time for a job change. Now after finding jobs in different companies; friends were scarce & remote to reach as easily as they were earlier.

Things are different with new people & new place. When there were no friends to meet or no place/reason to go out my mind started panicking “What am I gonna do! No friends, nowhere to go! Nothing to do!” that is when I realized; whatever happened to my Passions or hobbies! They were long lost & forgotten but thankfully never buried.

That is when I it struck me I had a dream a passion to play a guitar! So after few really enlightening musical concerts I bought my first guitar. Knowing that it was never too late I joined my guitar classes. It was good I finally was trying to achieve one such unaccomplished thing in life.

A year later I bought my first camera! Man was I thrilled or what! Finally things were really happening. I started to think thank God I did not let go of what I had.

It just happens that people get obsessed with so many things that they do not realize what makes them contented. We have just one life to live, there is no such thing as in this life or another because even if we believe in re-incarnation, we will not be the same what we were. Who are we fooling by consoling “Lets see if we can in next life.” when we know there is nothing like that.


Live your passion! Love your passion. If there is anything that gives you content & satisfaction do that. There are always critics, there are always supporters but there will be only one person to achieve it. Take time for things you love to do & do it with utmost love you have for it. After all there is one life & so many things to do in it & as we all know the clock never stops!


Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Personal vs Profesional Life

"Good Old Days!!" i think many of them have heard & used this phrase. Nostalgia is a part of life but change is the cause for notalgia. Coming back to "Good Old Days!!", the phrase signifies you deeply miss what you thoroughly enjoyed sometime back.

The days in college was so better! We spent Rs.20-30 lavishly. Friends were our 2nd family. Girls!! well one of the things that we missed then but didnt really bother much. Exams were scary. Copying was an art. We knew almost 3/4th of the college except few not so beautiful girls. Life was never the same, fun actually didnt require any money. We feared and respected our parents. Pocket money was sufficient enough or we made sure it was sufficient. "Books!!! ah... they are boring man! ".

On June 23rd 2006, when I joined my first company little did I know about the transition in me. I was happy to earn some money finally & blow it off! The change in me has shocked my friends & family.

Today after gaining almost 3years of professional experience I feel I have lost my personal life for almost 30years. Now friends are just part of life. Fun requires money. Salary is not enough, no matter how much we get. The very thought of books which used to scare me earlier now makes me feel it was so good. Parents are just respected, not feared. We dont know our neighbours or even our cubicle mates. Selfish - seems to be the motto of success. I have turned into a sane professional and an insane son. Now life means work, beer, restaurants and sleep.

When I just sit and look back at my life in the past 3years I have gained money, knowledge & a position but lost adulation of the family, friends and Life itself.